christmas eve~

yesterday morning recieve a call from my mami,den gotta meet her at SG.Buluh hospital..because my father need to have a medical check at there...

after that we had nothing to do..

so we headed to The Curve,Ikano..

den what we doing at there?

shopping lo~

bought a present for my mom

i bought a shirt for her..

she very like it..

[ mami: merry christmas ]

after that going to find a present for my little cousin

actually i duno what to buy for him

den i ask him what he wan for his present

 i keep bla out those things like shirt,pants,food

when he heard the world FOOD..he like very happy

den i bluff him that i not enough money

i bought a pack of cookies and my cousin bought him some candy~

 

bought present to my family until bankrup

i told my bro i no money to bought for him

my cousin and i make this for my bro as X'mas present

 

spend 99999999

for me i just bought a bottle of sweet 

i no money le~sob sob

sad la

lastly,taking photo with my little cousin

haha

psps: santa claus:i wan money and a guess watch

hahahaha:) 

finish exam~hurray

im very bored this few days.
sien til boom~
today i having MALAYSIAN STUDY exam started at 10 until 12
luckily i got study those tips..
if not i GG and u guys wont c me blogging at this time..

ermm,dont know want to blog about what..
after exam i going to 1U with my cousin..
she wanna bought some X'mas present from her friends and boyfriend~
what am i doing there..boring lo...
go buy a X'mas present for myself
bought 1 bottle of sweet
is very nice..

psps:X'mas wanna go where?? any suggestion

bla bla bla...lalala..

[ i dl from google]

i wanna have belly pierce again...

i wan have 2 or 3

is like:woo~cool

2morow is going to be a good days..

family days with of cause family la..

hahahaha X)

i mad with somebody..

ooi..i saying u la..newbie~

dont judge me in so many ways..and things is not your problem

what u like to said just said

i will just ignore it..

DAMN

u keep saying show that u are not gentlement at all..

u win already~

ps:lets keep him a clap><

over means GAME OVER

over is over.
i wont regret what had i told you.
what u want to said infront of your friends or whatever things..
just said it loud
if u hate me just hate
if u angry me just angry

from today,i wont cry
i wont have tears rolling around my eyes.
i want myself happy everyday.
i want everyone around me happy.
and i wont bring sadness's things to them
i gotta stay strong..
i wanna be alone

is okay that i din have any relationship
i stil have my family and my friends
i wont let them worry about me anymore

breathless,speachless,MEANINGLESS

i think my blog gotta be very

fresh

when im in a moody,shit-table,brainless mood
i also dont know what happen to me
just like im changing myself into a different person
what i wan?what i like?what i need the most?
i also dont know

sometime i feel myself like got some mental problem~
perhaps not..><
keep on thinking somethings that make me feel uncomfortable~
hmm..i think i should't stay at here for a moment~
may be at dat moment i really can figure it out what i want the most..

sorry to my friend..
i should't moody infront of u guys.
i will try my best to keep all my secrets myself
may be i will not show my emo face infront of u guys..
i like to be myself and not to control by anyone
i'm a person that want to have freedom
i think that this time if i had make some dicision
i hope i wont regret

psps:GOD BLESS ME that i lose my sad memories from now on

emo-ing

this few days i din't talk much..
i duno why what how when~bla bla bla
feel like stress den speachless..
dun feel like talking to anyone
i keep on my feelings in my heart
i pretend to smile,laughing around..
when i was in bed at nites,closing my eyes..
my tears keep rolling in my eyes..
i hope my dearest babe yuki is beside me..i hope i can cry out loud

i wanna leave this place and go to others palce to live
i duwan to think about anythings
my dearest gor gor..
i duno who to talk with..
i duno how to express my feelings..
when i told u all those things.
u support me whatever i do..
thanx you~

i really speachless in everythings..
someone please kill me..
can?
or let me lost my memory now..
i duwan to suffer in this kind of situation
is HURT,PAIN~
i duno what feelings is this..

untitile~

in my world..
my mind..
FAMILY IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THINGS
dun give me so much pressure until i cannot breath..
make me speachless~
haix

true friendship?

until now,i dun understand wad means friendship
i feel like everyone was changing day by day
nowdays when i am unhappy i trying to find somebody to chat but when i searching my phonebook..few of them i can find to chat
sometime my heart was bleeding because i feel like
thinking last time wad had happen in secondary school..
those memories keep repeating in my mind
our FRIENDSHIP just break down like dat..

dat day when i saw fews of my friends at station1,rawang
i try to smile with them
but they like dun wan bother me..
acting like duno me..
okay,fine..
i know that u guys' result are better thn me
u having a good results,but u have a damn fucking bad attitude is not the good things in the world..PLS~dun be too pround of urself
nowdays,got MISCHIEVOUS onot?
i guess its disappear in others mind..

everythings is GONE~

this is for my BEST BEST BABE forever..
MY SPECIAL FRIEND
Your cheerful smile Your caressing hand It's the really simple things
That make your life look so grand
You're a special woman It's in your eyes I see the truth
There is no disguise It's your spirit
Maybe your soul But my life without you Would feel painfully old
You've been a true friend I hope you stay
I would be so very empty If you ever went away

damn angry

他妈的~马来人做事都是那么没有脑
第一次我们去，因为迟了却不能做到……那时我们就拿表格回家填咯
以为再下个星期我们去做的时候就不用那么麻烦填那些东西

我记得我第二次去做护照时是因为印度人新年，妈妈就说当天去做咯因为爸爸没做工嘛
谁知道到了那边，走到去他们的department楼下看到一张纸写"CLOSE"
当时我都没那么气，自己想因该是public holiday没做工吧……
妈妈那时就在那边八下是不是真的没有开
过了不久，有蛮多人来了。。听他们说：他们来之前有大电话问假期有开吗……
他们department的人就说有
过后我们还看到他们IMIGRATION DEPARTMENT的人有来做工阿
而且还有patch card的叻~
WALAO，他们真的是无药可救了……懒到这种地步
我立刻骂@!#@%$^%&^(&*(*&(*&(*)()
明明就有做工却自己写CLOSE
ok..第二次时就算咯

今天是我第三次去那边了
去到那边还蛮早的……
妈妈就叫弟弟赶快下车去排队~
我和妈妈就到PARKING LOT park 车咯
他妈的XXX,PAKING LOTS 很多成但是没有一个是给我们PARK的……
全部的位子都是RESERVE，TNB，IMIGRATION DEPARTMENT等等
我就叫我妈不要再找了，随便找个位吧~
PARK好了车要走去找我弟时……我和我妈就找楼梯或电梯上咯~
走不久给我们找到电梯~一按，坏了~
真的是#$^&&%#@@$!#%$#
一个DEPARTMENT的FACILITIES都管不好~
还要CAPAI ＷＡＷＡＳＡＮ２０２０～
真的是笑话咯～
最后还是走路，走到去找我弟弟时看到他没有排队～
他告诉我们排队的人很多，一定轮不到我们做
妈妈就说不要做了，回家咯
我们就走过去问下那个保安：他们一天有给多少个号码～
一天２５０个！！！！！！！！！！！！
真的很过分咯～
人手那么多但是做那么少功～
真的不懂他们在作莫！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

*ps: I’m not really wanna said our government..but I really damn angry about it

断了的弦

断了的弦再怎么连
我的感觉你已听不见
你的转变像断掉的弦
再怎么接音都不对
你的改变我能够分辨

我沉默你的话也不多
我们之间少了什么不说
哎哟我笑后
表情终于有点难过握着你的手
问你决定了再走

我突然释怀的笑笑声盘旋半山腰
随风在飘摇啊摇来到你的面前绕
你泪水往下的掉说会记住我的好
我也弯着我嘴角笑

你的美已经给了谁
追了又追我要不回
我了解离开树的叶
属于地上的世界凋谢

断了的弦再弹一遍
我的世界你不在里面
我的指尖已经弹出茧
还是无法留你在我身边
断了的弦再怎么连
我的感觉你已听不见
你的转变像断掉的弦
再怎么接音都不对
你的改变我能够分辨

music

我沉默你的话也不多
我们之间少了什么不说
哎哟我笑后
表情终于有点难过握着你的手
问你决定了再走

我突然释怀的笑笑声盘旋半山腰
随风在飘摇啊摇来到你的面前绕
你泪水往下的掉说会记住我的好
我也弯着我嘴角笑

你的美已经给了谁
追了又追我要不回
我了解离开树的叶
属于地上的世界凋谢

断了的弦再弹一遍
我的世界你不在里面
我的指尖已经弹出茧
还是无法留你在我身边
断了的弦再怎么连
我的感觉你已听不见
你的转变像断掉的弦
再怎么接音都不对
你的改变我能够分辨

mess up~

At this moment,i think how many times i said sorry to you is useless at this time..
i had mess up ur life:(
what i really thiking about i also duno about it.
iziit not suitable?

i know that yday i told u all those things make u unhappy..
and yday want i trying to told u all those things is very unfair to you.
in my heart i try to apologize to you.
but i think you wont accept it in such an easy way..
its all my fault..
mayb for your friends they will judge me as a bad girl,at the beginning i trying to fool u..
but i really need to told you that im not fooling with you at the beginning..
what i need to told u is dun keep blaming urself..
you treat me very good in many ways..
so,u are a good guy..

im a bad person that mess up everythings.
with the reason that i oso duno..
for me,i have my own Ideal..
i really wanna study hard and try to work or study at out-station
and i really care about what my parents thinking about.
i duno want to make them unhappy..
duno since when,i feel that they are very important in my life..
even their feeling too..
i tried my best wanna make them happy all the time..

ps:in a hanging mood:(

hahaha..last day

finally i had finsh my 3rd semester..woohoo~
now i still got 1 subject to go..having my last class at 21 DECEMBER
today i having my presentation for MCD,information kiosk..
before my presentation,me and my friend standing near busary there watching some others people dancing..
they came to our college to promote an event sponser by GATSBY
on 11/11 they will held a workshop at SEGI college MPH~
okay,after dat is time to go back my class
haha..quite nervous when i waiting my turn for presentation
i saw my friends' final project..
some word i can said at here..
their project is AWESOME,NICE..

now im relaxing myself..
duno wanna continue dancing onot..haix..
somethings that are complicated in my mine now..
i need to solve it as fast as possible...
chao~

超生气~

今天超想打人
不懂为什么
一看到那个人就很讨厌咯....
因为发生很多事情
朋友为什么一定要对待另一个朋友不好？？
对待朋友的态度好像大便酱~
在朋友的面前很好，背后就说人家的坏话

i damn dulan lo...GRRR..
really wanna go infront of that person and slap that person until 999999
i really wanna told that person

IF YOU REALLY WANNA JUDGE THAT PERSON..PLEASE THINK TWICE BEFORE SAYING OUT THOSE BABI WORDS...f***
收皮啦你~以为自己很威阿
他妈的！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

ps:damn angry...sorry for using those rude word..chao~

28 october 2009

now is 4.00 am
is consider 29 october
guess wad guys..
i dint sleep at all..
because i rushing my TYPO last assesment..
arg,finally i had done..
walao eyh,tired werr~

28 october 2009
got 1 babi birthday la...
hahhaa..
this morning his classmate sms me and told me that they help him to celebrate his birthday at station 1 cafe around 7 like that..

i duno wanna bought what present for him..
so finally decide to design a things for him la..
what things i design lehx...
deng deng~


this is my last minute design..
haha..i know my design is ugly..hahaha
ooi,NIGEL chan...
paiseh nerhx..
hope you dont said me until 99999
hahaha

anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you..^^

ps:chao~wanna sleep le...WTH...

confused...

this few days i was unhappy...
duno why suddenly my feeling make me so down..

GOD,i wan my JOJO back..
is not that i duwan to give it to that aunty...
i just duwan "she" is unhappy everyday..
i know that aunty treat her very nice..
u buy all the stuff for her..
but the problem is she dun like..
i duno what happen..
everytime i saw her cute little face at my home,she will happy..
but at the time that aunty sayang her,hug her,need to bring her back..
her face looks so unhappy.
at that moment,i feel so sad,feel like heart broken..
feel wanna cry out loudly..

NOW, i wondering wanna go back to TKD onot..
i really confuse and wondering...
i scare when i go ing back i din have dat time to manage my homework..
haix..but i suddenly miss my TKD life so much..

SUNDAY~

today was sunday
wake up early morning to prepare myself..
because i out going with my dear.

about 9 something he come and fetch me
after that we headed to his house because wanna change car with his parents..
i had know a little girl at my dear house
she is cute and funny..
unfortunatly,i din have her photo..*sad*

i going to the curve with my dear.
actually wanna go to buy some present for my dearest babe
but it seem like din't have anythings special..
finally,i GIVE UP and din't buy anything..
we having window shopping at the curve
my dear had bought a shirt for himself
after he bought the shirt he told me that he bought the shirt is because of me..
i feel like:ermm..why is because of me..
he said: when he wear this shirt he look younger..
at that time i like stund..
let him zadao 99999999.........

although my plan has fail..
because at first i wanna go to timesquare
at last decide not to go because sure alot of people..
so sad that i cannot saw CHIN~
anyway,luckily today he had accompany me
if not i just like stupid staying at home like noob...

dear, i love you...>< ^^

excited~

tomorow
started my new semester..
i miss all my college friends..

this semester break i fell so bored..
nothing to do at all
keep repeating watching twilight over and over again.
I LOVE TWILIGHT

love edward cullen and bella swan..
i watch it about 8 times..
my mom said me mad..
i think i am..
haha

din go anywhere at all..
staying at home like so po..
haix
nothing to write~
chao~

im tired~

FINALLY,i had finish all my assesment..
now i just leave 1 subject..
need to wait until 25th August.
dat subject i really can mati terus..

i totally HATE dat subject..
i duno what the subject is talking about..
i wan PENGSAN le la..

i finish my 2nd semester le...
so fast...

On the Way~

oops~
longtime i din update my blog already~
hmm..
my 2nd semester gonna finsih soon~

in this semester,i taking 6 subject
5 is pratical and 1 is teori..
honestly,i very enjoy in this semester.
although sometime there is some arguement between each others..
i miss those memories that hanging around with my friends....
having lunch together,same class together,doing assignment together....

feel dat college life was not dat bad at all..
no matter what had happen there stil got alot of friends to care and concern us..
i very appreaciate them so much..
we just like a FAMILY~
hahahaha

2nd semester friends
*Travis Loh aka papa
*Han Way aka kor kor
*Nick aka kor kor
*Keong Kor aka nai ma
*Apson aka jie jie
*An Yu aka jie jie
*Soon hOng
*Han Seng
*shamene
*Carmen
*Suki
*Kairul
*Sue Ann
*Chui yiew
(stil got alot nerhx..)

gotta end my 2nd semester
i so hope that the next semester also will same class with them
FULL OF HAPPINESS AND MEMORIES WITH THEM~
ENJOY MY TIME WITH THEM~

my insect drawing~

[[this is my insect drawing]]
how was it?please leave some comment oo..
this semester make me wanna mad and make me wanna die...
alot assignment to do..
now im rushing all my assesment..
i gotta be mad.

my animation!
colour and form!
10 sketching!!!!!!
mutimedia web page!!!!

i wanna have time to have a good sleep~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my sunday

yesterday was 27.
i planning to have some photo shooting at my school
it is for my homework.

wake up early in the morning.
then prepare everythings,waiting for my boy to fetch me.
after he come to fetch me,we headed to MCD.
waiting for another fwen to fetch my brother.

and bla bla bla....

about 11 we reach our school and we started to shooting.
we ended our shooitng at about 1o'clock.
den we planning to watch movie,den we headed to the curve~
we watch HARRY POTTER.
it quite interesting but some part of the movie got abit bored.
our movie started at 4.45 and end at 7.30

after our movie we going back home..
den having dinner with my family.

no mood to blogging.

[my figure drawing]

yoohoo,this is my figure drawing...
got look cacat onot?

actually not 100% done by myself
i wanna thanx you to NICK..
help me alot..^^

haiyo,this few weeks buzy this kind of this..
next week wanna draw insect..
Oh My God..gotta faint

this is my college fwen

星期日的早上

刚才7点半被妈妈吵醒
就不想跟他们出门~我也不知道为什么有那种感觉
我好闷！！！！！！！
好想跟朋友一起出去~
不知道为什么最近的我都很爱哭
就会无端端的哭
三八到死啊

有时我很想他在我身边陪我，
但是某些原因我却不能每一次看到他
我真的真的好想他~
有时他跟他朋友们喝茶时，
在那个时候我很想他陪我聊天
心里是酱想
但是就对他说，叫他去陪朋友先
有时他累了，我却一直哄他去睡觉
其实我很想他陪我多一下

我自己最近傻傻的....
我的星期日早上就是那么无聊

我 不 开 心 ! ！ ！ !

今天很不开心！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

自己一个人在家到下午5点半，妈妈才回来！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

今天还以为可以看到你一下的................

怎知道你就跟朋友突然下了KEPONG....................失望咯！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

刚才跟你聊到一半，突然没有回我.....

刚才突然间不知道为什么很不爽~

过后跟朋友去另一个地方喝茶

过后就去找我妈妈

然后他们不在了~

我打给妈妈时就给他骂到99999999999

不爽阿！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

一直给人骂

本来跟朋友玩到开开心心的~

我的好心情酱变成不开心了~！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

2.36 a.m

NOW IS 2.36 am.
and now i still blogging
because i just finish my FLIPBOOK for my animation
OMG damn tired..
ARGGG

yesterday i having shooting at our college with my others friends.
it is a group assignment. 5 person in a group
this assignment is for multimedia..
we need to create a web page.
the web page need to include our editing pic,video,sound,and others.



[[my 1st picture]]



[[the 2nd picture]]



[[last picture]]

BUSY BUSY~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is my 2nd semester in my college
i started my busy life
busy with my assignment.coursework..
haix...so damn BUSY
i busy until i din have time to rest..

wuwwuwuwu..
i wanna have more time for me..
i wanna have more time to give me rest..

anyway i enjoy my college life with my friends..

i wanna go busy my flipbook le..
GTG~
2morow having presentation..
gambateh

my dicision is WRONG!!!!!!!

in my parents mind.
18 years old is stil a small kid
i dun agree with them.
i duno why i feel like that

i know that i had change alot.
i try to change myself become mature
i duwan my parents to protect me just like a small kid
i try not to telling lie to them
but..wad had they done to me.

yesterday midnite, i told them that i couple..
i din told my parents directly before
when i text the message to her,i wanna cry.
i feel i had telling lie to her longtime.
i duwan to do that again..i feel i very BAD
so i message her and apologize to her that i always telling lie on her
wad respond did i get back??
for them 18 years old is not a time yet..
i ask my mom izzit angry with me..
she said no..
what is the purpose that i told them..
i dunwan to suffer anymore by thinking how to lie them

mami,did u know what am i thinking??
i think that im 18 years old..i cannot lie to you anymore
sometimes,where i wanna go i just keep keep on lying to you
i duwan to do that anymore
i so hope that i can face to face told you all my things
but i failed
i scare u will slap me when u angry
i scare when i told you,u just keep quite and duwan to give any respone to me.
i scare when i told you,you wont bother me few days.
I SCARE ALOT OF THINGS
maybe when i told you all this things
u wil said what u had done to me is for my own good.

i thought my parents are open minded
IM WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!
i dun even understand their feeling~
what i had done is just hurting at them


amily,i feel i wanna find u to chat this things.
i feel very unhappy

yuki,i wan beside u guys.
i wan we like secondary time
everyday,what unhappy things i oso can told you face to face
i feel so suffer
i so hope when i unhappy,u guys are around me

i love my BABEs

5/6/2009

on dat day nitez
my hui ting babes had organize a dinner for us
because longtime we din meet up each others jorr...
so we meet up at PIZZA HUT...
when we start eating,we talk alot nonsence.
because our hobby is to talk nonsence,and talk alot of joke..
after dat,suddenly hui ting and ee hon babes take 2 cakes..
den they sing bday song for me and nicole..
at that moment i feel so touch..until now oso the same
i feel that i miss my secondary memories so much
they give me a card,a present by hui ting and ee hon..
then i recieve a simple present from my fwen name kah hoe..
he give me a tissue as my present,and the tissue he gave me is take from pizza hut..lame==

when my dearest amily babes wanna going bek home..
she give me a kiss...ARGG..so sweet la...
she make me cannot sleep whole nites..ahahha..joke
i love her so much..

my cousin oso give me my present..
love her damn damn much..
she bought me lee hom album
i love her..
wanna hug her and kiss her..hahaha

my mami oso bought a shoes for me..
i love u so much
muaks....

i hate the word

i not hate u by scolding me
i not wanna complain about you dat u cannot bring happy to me..

can u please think of my feelings when u speak out those word..
i hate u scold me USELESS..
harlo..who i am???
i am not useless okay..
you alwaiz think that i cannot sucess..
what the hell la...
until now u not believe me at all..
in your mind,a very hardworking person is a sucess person?
or a person that study everyday is a sucess person??

if 1 day i had mad and run away from home.
i duno who should i blame...
i hate the word USELESS...
i hate it
can u please stop using this word....!!!!!!!!!!!
now i cannot control my emotions at all...
i damn moody...
i feel wanna said those words out..
but i feel dat is rude..
i respect u so i din said anythings...
anyway did u respect me at all....~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

为什么

为什么我每一次做东西
都是我迁就别人的
就是不可以换他们迁就我的吗？

不爽阿！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

blogging...

this few days nothing to do..
din have class for 4days..
GRRR~make me feel bored..

this few days what i had do??
sleeping,blogging,chatting...
haix...meaningless..

got assignment to do
but i duno how to do

the question is:
In your opinian,what does moral and ethics enphasize on?
What impact do they have in the life on a individual?
How do they guide in the administration of a bussiness organization?
How could they be moulded to feed into the needs of today bussiness?
Discuss...
(1000words)


OMG~~see and read the question oso will faint..
duno where to start and where to find those information..
sucks question...ARGGG~~~!!!!!!!

when i thinking wanna start to do my assignment
i duno where to start and how to do at all..
stung at there 4 few hours then on9..

what the meaning of the question??????
can anyone told me??

make me wanna DIE

today the wheater is freaking HOT man..
make me wanna faint
if now my bathroom got air-conditional..
izzit very good..hhaahaha

nth to do...
being gOd at home..
ARGGG~~~~
hot til i wanna wear bikini liao..
haha...joke nia..

aiyo,fast fast raining larx..

bored

ALONE AT HOME...
bored
bored
bored
bored

dunno wad to do at home...
bcome HOME ALONE..
arggg..bored til mad la..

new new

haha...

helo,everyone..

actually i got blogspot few years ago..

but i din try to blogging at here..

nowadays everythings is new...

hmm..new college life..

new look..==

new college friends..

timetables differents with last time..

homework is just doing assignment..

but those assignment can let us go to heaven..

duno wad stupid question asking about..

1st is moral..enphasize this and that..

make me wanna faint..

2nd is english need to design our own logo

then having presentation

3rd in my bm group assignment..

luckily is group assignment..

if not i will prepare a VIP room at TROPICANA hospital..

ahahaha...tropicana hospital is just beside my school..

if suddenly i faint,it so convinian to send me there

taking stupid photo infront of hospital...hahahah


haix,this is just a short semester..

taking 3 subject...

boring subject..