Christmas 2012

Christmas is around the corner, every places full of nice decoration, walking in every shopping mall or street can listen to christmas's song.
Making a wish for my christmas...
If santa can make my dream come true, can santa let me see my dad 1 days on christmas and let me celebrate with him?
Honestly this year i don't even have the mood to celebrate christmas, i hope that i can be tough and wont cry easily but I can't...
I'm standing here alone and trying to be steady and take care of mummy and my brother so that they wont worry me...but sometime i really need somebody to care me and lend me a shoulder and let me cry like nobody business...don't always fake infront of me cause I'm tired with it..
I'm not a girl that strong, I don't like people looking at me when I'm crying so i choose to cry alone..
trying alot of way
to make me be tough and earn alot of money..I wanna give mummy a better life..although now is really suffer but no matter how i wont easily give up.

回忆

这里是让我有个很好很好回忆的地方，这里都是我跟家人朋友去玩的回忆
爸爸，你不在都51天了。
我还是那么的想你。爸爸你辛苦了那么多年，你应该休息的但是不是这样离开我们。
我真的很想很想哭，没有你的日子妈妈很少笑了。爸爸你在极乐世界好吗？
每一次听到你喜欢的歌，看到你的照片，想起和你一起的回忆，我的眼泪就不停的流下
爸爸你真的给了我们很多很多回忆，很美好的回忆。
每一次你都很舍得花钱给我们买自己喜欢的东西，你却很节省的不买自己的东西
爸爸，这7个星期我真的很努力的让妈妈开心，放心，不要担心我那么多。
每次拜拜你时我都很想哭但是我忍着，我知道一旦我哭了，妈妈就会跟着我哭
爸，你懂吗？每一次我看着云朵，看着天空是心里都会想如果你能出现以下给我看到就好
爸爸，我那天梦到你跟我玩。你真的回来看我。
我有乖乖听你的话，我好想你～不敢在妈妈的面前哭，关在房间里偷偷的哭，在上班时没人的时候哭，发泄下。爸爸，我爱你，我想你～你知道吗？你看到吗？听到我想跟你讲的东西吗？
爸爸，每一次我讲笑话时其实我是很勉强的开心和笑。因为我不要让别人担心我。我心里面却一直流泪。